I'm surprised really at the way and feel and wondering why this is soo important for me and still can't quite work it out. This is my first child that will be sitting these exams I was'nt born and bought up in Bucks.
What is making me soo nervous? I have soo many thoughts running through my mind such as: have I prepared my DS sufficiently? Have I gone through the right material? desperately hoping he does'nt come down with a virus or get ill at the last minute which will put to waste all the hard work.... and on and on and on. Even a sneeze from him sets me off. Of course, he has no idea about how I feel. To him, I am just as calm as always (I hope)
Blimey, I never thought for one moment that it could be soo stressful. In fact it only seems like yesterday I was stressing about my own exams and here I am today nervous (probably more nervous) about the exams my DS is about to sit. I went to a comp myself, no grammar schools close to where I was bought up. Why then suddenly is grammar school soo important for me? Have I just got myself caught up in the whole thing?
Am I normal or am I just an obsessed, stressed out lunatic? when will all this end? on the 12th of this month when it's all over or does this stress just continue until we get the results?
I'm soo good at putting on a face that my DS asked whether he could do some vocab work with me last night (I know....even I was surprised!, he maybe getting withdrawal symptoms as I've tried soo hard to resist doing any VR with him the past couple of days) and I said 'I think you've worked soo hard and I'm soo proud of you that we'll give it a rest now'. In my mind I was thinking 'yes, lets go through every single word you've ever got wrong and make sure you know what they mean, then let me give you a paper so you can prove to me you're ready'
. Sometimes, you've just got to hope that whatever you have taught your DC is sufficient and let go.
Wishing everyone on this board (well...actually your DC's) the best of luck for tomorrow.
Whatever the outcome, I must remember that I did my best (sorry, meant to read: 'whatever the outcome, I must remember that my DS did his best'.)
I will always be proud of him for the amount of effort he's put into this.
Blimey, I really do go on and on.