My story will not be one that many will want to read or some will find difficult to read. I have been on and off with antidepressants over the years since a teenager and this year at the age of 48 I can finally say I am coming out of the chronic depression I have had since childhood....the solution has been drastic...leaving an extremely stressful but very well paid job in healthcare and training to be a psychotherapist. Now i feel frustrated that psychotherapy were never really on offer to me..it was the occasional bit of online CBT and just carry on with the meds ......
The process involves a huge amount of self awareness and personal therapy. Eventually I have worked out that many of my problems are down to patterns of thinking and behaviour learned in childhood to manage anxiety. I see my children both have their little traits for coping with anxiety and they have learned thise to cope with my parenting- part of which has been to have high expectations for them. I am hoping I can change my way of thinking to help them not go through what I have been through.
Why do you feel people would not want to read your story? Quite to the contrary, I think.
There are three important things I take from your post:
1. You suffered a lot and were let down - I am sorry to hear that; it must have been extremely hard for you.
2. You are coming out of your chronic depression - this is great news.
3. You have pointed out that our ways of parenting may lead to our DCs developing anxieties of their own. I think this is extremely important to realise so thank you for sharing this observation.
You felt you were failed by the healthcare system, so you decided to take charge. You have come up with a solution and are working on improving your health. This required you to change careers, which I imagine was not an easy decision to make, but has led to a very positive outcome - you have worked out where your problems come from and you are working on overcoming unhelpful patterns of thinking and behaviour. All these are really positive changes and I'm sure you will come out a winner.
I think your story can give inspiration to people who face similar issues.